During this time of year i am finding it really had to resist temptation to reflect on the last couple of years. As typical with the end of year you tend to think about everything that has happened leading up to this point, these days my head is a constant battle between happiness and this […]

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The Battle

There has been a thought process for me which i have come to call “the battle” for me this is the ongoing battle within between happy + Sad. Since my last results which were good by the way i am officially in remission and really enjoyed life for about 6 weeks after that, up until […]

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Todays Battle

The 20th of September marked 1 year to the day that i had a doctor tell me i had Cancer, Which was by far the worst day of my life. Tomorrow is the day i get my final results which depending on the results will put me into remission and i cant wait for this […]

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I am depressed

I am depressed! its something i have learned recently to recognise and i am not ashamed of it 1 bit. Its a temporary mindset and it wont last.   Again i am writing this from the heart, i probably wont re read what i write as i will just delete things and change it. Now […]

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Get used to it

Just had my first ultrasound done to check for any thyroid tissue and it all came back clear – im not someone who cries at things that happen in life but i swear to go iv cried more in the last 3 weeks then i have in the last 10 years!  During the scan everytime […]

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Ups and downs pt 2

So this morning i went to see my ent specialist who told me i need 2 more scans before i officially get the all clear from cancer. So here i am again sat in a hospital waiting room with my thoughts for company not knowing if this scan is going to be the thing that […]

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Was sat in the waiting area with my mum in complete silence unable to speak. Get called into the room and the first thing the doc says is “stop worrying its good news!!!” Didnt really know how to react i wanted to cry but feel im all out of tears of im honest. But fuck […]

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